| heyys again. i am in my blogging uniform. which is, my PJs. :) can u see what i'm writing? should i change to green (RG theme colour)? or something? how about blue? for BOOMBASTIC richard. hahaha. well, take turns =) today i just saw cotton wool's letter. i mean tagg. dont worries, i understand cos i am also having probs. well, my mom went back to jkt for a while, and then he stays here with me. and i hv like so much hw to do, and i am so tired and like now, i am emotionally/physically/mentally tired tired, i have to ask him to brush his teeth, my god, i don't know why now i always feel so tired. oh. track capt just called. she said i'm reserve for javelin and shot put. never mind. i feel more stress if i am competing. i want so much to help richard win something, because it is, after all, boombastic. LOL. i am damned tired, cos my mom and i just talked about mashing potatoes using our toes over skype (yeah, our conversations are as mad as that) and i hv house prac tomorrow. let's see if i will be able to wake up tmrw. it is now 11.11pm. it seems like 12.30 already, because my eyes are practically drooping. i think im getting sick, because all of a sudden i create poetry. i know this sounds mad. here is an exclusive of something for a surprise: x) I was lost at that time And filled with doubts I didn’t know then How long I would last I didn’t know what to do And where I would be If it wasn’t for you I’d still be in plea All the desperate times That I have been through I’d never given up ‘Cause I knew you were there too I struggled to my feet And got back up like you did I called you and said Thank you, I finally did it There was pride in your voice The way it sounded to me That you finally helped someone up Who was in desperate plea Today I can see the leaves falling Away from the tree I wonder why they do not Stick to you like me Maybe they don’t decide But I know I sure do So I guess I’ll stick to you And forever stay true I don’t know how or why Or even when you tried When at my fearful moments You were always by my side I didn’t know how to tell you But now I sure do ‘Cause at this Valentines Day I want to say thank you/ I love you Actually, this is more for CW and Amethyst and Liza. and of course, oneohfour AND boombastic richard. not forgetting besties. =) thanks soo much. todayys i went for thirdlang. lucky today i wasn't sleeping in class, because we covered quite a lot. and i poked notmianbao again. because she was literally sleeping. =) april, liting and i are going to change our thirdlang days to wednesdays fridays. so far here's my schedule. monday: 5.30. tues 6.15. wednesdays 6.30. thursdays 5.30 fridays 6.30. ok, i know that totally sucks. i am going to be living at the nanyang boarding hostel from march/midmarch onwards. i dont know how i am ever going to cope with maths. why doesnt NOTHING ( which is 0) divide by NOTHING not equals to NOTHING? i mean, come on, i dont have a valentines date (except maybe for frannie, and she is a girl, mind you) and i mean, i dont think anyone would go w me. haha and like, my life is undefined. you know, like the ERROR2 the calculator shows when i key in the stupid sum 0 divide by 0 equals to what and then they say ERROR2? yah, that kind. u can see im still in confusion w maths. man, that is so obvious. this is so sick. i am so sick. my life is totally undefined. anyway, i am disgressing from the topic of valentines day. lardeedum- x) todayys char and sammy were like outside of the class and char went over to oneohthree and opened the door. then sammy was like going 'charlotte thats oneohthree' and then we all started laughing (well, me, sammy and char) haha. so funny. it was a rainny day. it'd rather hope it was snowing. because if it were i could just take some snow and throw it at him. nevermindds. sometimes my nickks can go a little haywire. i am sleepy. i think i've told you. if i've not, here i say it again. ohyeahhs. here are things i found in my fridge: 1 pack of overfrozen veggies 2 bags of kit kat (i wonder how and when it got there) 2 bottles of coke, prob from pizza huts orders we took fro the prosperity pizza. my mom was so mad about them that she ordered pizza home three times within 15 days. this is just so weird 2 slices of overleft smoked salmon pizza from spaggeddies. i think today is the 5th day already. but i was too hungry, and totally hyperventilating, so i just ate it anyway. so far, i havent got the runs, though. and anyway, that black BMW who almost crashed with us at newton made a stinking headache on me. and i think it still ahsnt subsided. i think there's a blood clot forming at the part where my maths and logic comes into place, cos i can nv seem to do maths. most unlikely, though, cos i have NEVER been able to do well in maths. that sucks, i know. this is just plain weird. it's quite sick when u think of yourself working to death in sch and at home too, taking care of your brother. now i know how hard it is on jenny, and so i think i like her as a friend. actually, i already love her as a friend ages ago. its just that i believe she's the most hardworking pupil in our class. =) whereas im not, because recess and lunch times on me are spent on doing unfinished hw, while jenny is already doing today's hw. see what i mean? what crap am i writing. i am in guitar. yes, it's official. mr loh was like 'GUITARR?!" when he pointed to me cos me and aq were talking to ms teng, and then he pointed to AQ and said "NCC?!?!?!" and then we both laughed like mad. it was a funn day. the next day was thursday, and i went straight to the library after speech and drama with aq. yt had CO prac. and then i told aq about how hard i am doing and juggling everything, and i think she just kinda understood. my bestie indeed. im sure yq would have known too. =) and ohyahh. aq said yq more mature, cos her nickk on msn is 'stay pretty alwayz'. what a funny and weird definition. these are the kind of crazy things we do everyday. RG netball rockks, seriously. amethyst is in it, and well, what can i say, they're fab. anyway, i have decided to be hardworking on my thirdlang and brush up some things. so i am NOT quitting jap for the time being. heehee. i, in depression, am downing a whole 12-pack strepsil down, so as to make me sleep real fast and keep my mouth fresh. hahaha. |
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i hv so much to handle now, plus exams are round the corner, and they are really really killing me and yeah, i just cant stand it anymore. i know i am just going to overreact and die of depression/exhaustion/hyperventilation/lack of oxygen/lack of entertainment in my life.
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I am so depressed.
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what do i do, cos i am just plain sick and tired and i am really emotionally/physically/mentally SICK, for god's sake.
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that's it. valentines is around the corner. im with frannie to the movies. i guess. heckks, plan later. maybe my mom will go all mad and say im going to the movies with a guy. i hope not, cos that would be so embarrassing. GOD. SAVE ME. parents overreact sometimes.
- whoo has a date for valentines already? -
- woots, off and away -
drenched, with my bag in the rain, jess.