| -Jessi I'm just gonna split entry types into two. One's the usual crazy one, the other's just quite some philo stuff. Hahaha. Today's the crazy one. That's because someone wrote "On 2001, September 11, a plane bombed great world city." GREAT WORLD CITY. That person must have had a trauma. I mean, if she did, I would have too. Tell you what, I'm living right across the road. Enough of that. Here's one math equation which works totally fine. School work + Hostel work = HARD WORK. Seriously. And I feel like puking. Not cos of my corn soup. Also not cos of doing something frannie said. 0.o Nevermind. My godbro replied me only last night. That was a big feat. I want to spend all my time smsing people. Totally have no mood studying. Oh eeeek I just realised I'm listening to AHDU the tian hei. EEEK. Anyway. go to 6A class blog! harharhar. Let's see, my roommates huh: Chern Zi - nanyang high, sec 2 Lucy - nanyang high, sec 2 Kaini - nanyang high, sec 2 Get the trend?! I'm the only one who's in RG and sec1. And they speak loads of chinese.But they are fun, seriously. Last night they showed me a chinese menu, directly translated to English. It was HILARIOUS. Like 11pm still laughing like mad. Next time post some funny ones if I can. =) Sorry for not writing lost posts, cos i really cant manage. Last night I also dreamt a different dream concerning her. Let's see if i got time to write. will be untidy nvm lar harr. so somehow we were like in puncak that kind of mountain, got like hotel that kind for class outing. it was this year's 6a class with her, and somehow i went there too. i dont know why but who cares. that isnt the point. and yah. so i could see her totally frustrated and so angry scolding the class and all. i think something happened, you know. and she burst out of this place crying, although she didnt let them see her. but anyway i was at the door so she got me so tight, i almost couldnt breathe. but i got her back, and then we had to go to some cpr course (OHMANN WHAT IS IT WITH CPR COURSES) someplace up the mountain later on in the night. in the end we went earlier lah. and so i was signalling to frannie and mei en and andre (IN MY DREAM) to get them to control the class or something.yeah sure they did and frannie came and grabbed me too like she did. AHAHAHHAA. WEIRD DREAM. and yeah we went up the mountain for that CPR COURSE. o.0 and at night it was too dark so we had to share a room. and at night we had a talk. like that kind of mom-daughter talk she started crying and i started crying. sounds weird? dreams. but anyway feel so much better saying it out, cos i broke out in cold sweat and completely thrown off blanket in the morning. |
i am so inspired by simmy's blog! it was so well-written. that is why. KEKEKE. u dont need to guess whats happening.
i dont know why other people or even myself sometimes care about superficial things, like getting new phones, new clothes, new everything. Maybe it's just cos of the CPR and first aid course today that made me really go deeper into the point, but it has been a touchy subject in me since last year. Anything can happen to anyone at anytime. This is a painful truth that everyone has to accept and take it.
Imagine one day; you see your mom on the chair, when she suddenly collapses to the ground. And then what do you do? Do you keep thinking about what your dinner will be like? Instead you should be thinking what you should be doing. Get 995! Perform DRABCH! CPR!
I want to be a counselor. I want to light a spark in each and every person. I want to inspire people. WHen I go to University I don't want to study Finance, like Liting, or Computers or Engineering or Business Managing, like my dad wants me to. I don't want to be involved in those, because they are all superficial things of a country. Look at Singapore. It's not how big it is that determines her rise and fall. The economy doesn't improve just because the government had some reclaimed land! It depends on the morale of SIngaporeans; how hard they work.
I want to give people the feeling, the way I do when Jessica got her morale from me (Jessie from NZ =)) just by dropping a short note on her inbox, and it only took me ten minutes or so to write the message. It took me a lot of thinking to push her and motivate her, but I didnt have to take three hours, I didn't have to spend any money, I didn't have any reclaimed land or money or possession! It was just from my heart. It was what I thought. It was what first came to mind, and now we Jessicas are still the goodies who come together every month online to just talk, even though we have different time zones. I like the feeling, when I finally help another of my kind release herself from all those things, and float in what I had to say. I didn't spend any money at all, and I earned myself a good friend instead.
I don't want to counsel for money. All those children, the abandoned ones. Why are they despised? Why are they outcasted in some societies? Are you not all also children? Do you not have the same beating heart? DO you not also have hands, mouths, noses, eyes and ears? WHy are they less treated than those rich kids? Is it because they are abandoned, or they're bad or naughty, that you give up on them and simply leave them to be wanderers? Why are they not treated the same as others? Does being abandoned or left by mean that they are at fault, or does that mean they deserve less treatment? What is all of THAT? What is it that makes you take one glance at person and diagnose her as a 'less-privileged' person and therefore refuse to be friendly with her? Are you being friendly with yourself, then? We are all humans. Have you realised that?
I want to settle down somewhere, a world without distractions, like without money. Maybe by 25 I could settle down in San Fransisco with my love, and not live in those rich, classy places, because money is too often a distraction. I will open a counseling centre, especially for children, because they are the angels of God, they are those who will in future lead the world. Without humans reproducing, the world will not exist. I will open a nursing centre, taking in all the abandoned children, those not even barely 2 months old. I will care for them, because they, like us, deserve a place in this world. They too deserve life. They, no matter where they are from or how they look like, are also part of our society. Why is that we shoo them away, without even knowing how they are inside? Is it only the superficial, outside things that count? Is it that if I'm fat, I am ugly, inside and outside?
SO why do people care about such superficial things like that, when others don't even have the privilege to achieve one. WHy is it that I care so much about changing my handphone to a newer brand, when I know that there are kids out there who might be dying of some disease, starvation or thirst? Why do I even hate vegetables when there are kids out there who do not even have food. THey have to eat tree bark. If you are fussy about those, think about the kids in poor countries. They do not have proper hygiene. Diseases spread so easily, in maybe an hour or two, and we can get treatments for those with a doctor's trip 5 minutes away from home?
WHy do we care about shopping for some superficial things? It's what's inside that counts. Think about what other people are experiencing while you complain. You complain that your bed is too hard, or soft, when people dont even have roofs over their heads.
ohmann. i saved my earlier post somewhere but i cant find it. it was a long one okayy! -_-'' but anyway genus concert was so nice, although i had the totally wrong dress code, mann. okayy i wore my g2000 balck sleeveless one. no wait somehow that shirt has affinity with the uni cultural centre. last time kumon also wear that one over there. ahaha. back to topic. then i wore the skirt my grandmere gave me. it doesnt look nice, okay. i should have worn my purple one. =( yeah but i brought my pink shawl along, so it wasnt so bad. halfway thru the concert i had april put it on. not bad! ahahaha. when i reached the centre rach was like in front of me, and so she was like saying that i look like an adult (okay badd) and when we met liting and april they said the same thing. T_T. ohmann. next year i am SO wearing a less formal shirt and skirt. and everyone brought bags. so we waited there from like. 6.50 to 7.30?! ms ong was late okayys. and she had our tixx. i was like. ohmann where is she. and once we went in we sat, magdalene on my left and april on my right. and they started and playing and they are pro lar, okay, but this conductor was like really, really farnieee. he had a long fringe so he kept shoving it up every minute. hahahaha. and we were like supressing our laughter.brrr. and then there was this song with the drums and all, and april totally went mad about the drummer who had red hair. i mean, okay fine he WAS a little cute and his drumming was pro. ahahaha. but no, i am NOT obsessed. april is. AHAHAHA. okay and after that, it ended early, so we were waiting for our moms, liting needed to throw something so she was looking for a dustbin (and yeah, the place lacks of dustbins) and she started looking all over, and then we all helped and went inside the centre again, cos it had aircon. haha. and yeah we looked around and around and like after 5 whole mintues of searching and all we finally found one RIGHT IN FRONT OF US LOR. i was like pointing to it and "isnt that a dustbin??!!" all of us were really, really blind. so after that we were waiting outside when this car drove up which looked a lot like rach's car. a lot. a lot until rach practically ran to it, put her hand on the car door handle and then looked at the parent and then she realised it wasnt her car. OOPS. yah and then she ran back again. and she hid behind me. then everyone was like laughing away. i was the worst. i was almost rolling on the floor. so farnie!! imagine running up to someone else's car and then the parent sees you and then u got the wrong car. OHMANN. LOLL!!. ohwell. nice sat. was nice was nice. and today i got my new phone!! nokia 6111 with the new promotional student line. i am so way on a jackpot. i shall look for my old post now. dont know where it is. T_T. toodles bloggers. have a nice holiday. |