oh, cause you won't listen

Sunday, September 24, 2006

♥ Sunday, September 24, 2006

Sometimes I wonder why some things are so contradictory.
Saying one thing can mean another. Sometimes we don't even want to know whether what is the truth because we know that if we know what the truth is, we won't be able to control ourselves.
Perhaps, that is what it means to love.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

♥ Saturday, September 23, 2006

I'm bored. I really am. So I shall come up with my own lame quiz. (Strictly no pun intended)

My List of Top Three Truthful Statements:
1) Let him learn to find himself. And then everything else comes naturally.
(If you don't find yourself,what's the point of finding the area of a sector? [Take pi as 3.142])

2) Mature are those who have experienced love; to find love is a growing process.
(Only those who have experienced what true love is will understand that feeling of love)

3) Tomorrow is a continuation of today; today is a continuation of yesterday.
(Ditto. Tomorrow is Saturday and today is Friday and yesterday was Thursday. Everyday
you are living in the same life, as the same person.The only difference is that we don't know
what tomorrow will bring.)

My List of Top Three Untruthful Statements:
1) Success is 1% genius and 99% perspiration.
(HELLO. I have never achieved self actualization. I sweated loads for lit pt but still)

2) Every cloud has a silver lining.
(Firstly, you should know that clouds are NOT silver. They are grey. Or white. Secondly,
clouds have no linings.)

3) Be the shepherd instead of being the sheep.
(Sheep are cute. They have this cute little tail which bobs when they go baa. Moreover the
shepherd is a mean bean because he exposes the sheep to humiliation.)

I can't think of any more. And I shall not be lame either. I always forget what I want to post about.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

♥ Tuesday, September 12, 2006

I went on another Blogthings spree.

Your Aura is blue

Spiritual and calm, you tend to live a quiet but enriching life.You are very giving of yourself. And it's hard for you to let go of relationships.The purpose of your life: showing love to other people.Famous blues include: Angelina Jolie, the Dali Lama, Oprah.Careers for you to try: Psycologist, Peace Corps Volunteer, Counselor

June Baby

Peaceful and harmonious, you seek the gentle side of life.Your warmth and consideration touches many.Your soul reflects: Friendship, love, and beauty.Your gemstone: Pearl.Your flower: Rose.Your colors: Light blue, white, and cream

Your Career Personality: Capable, Friendly and Energetic.

Your Ideal Careers:
Actor,Advertising,Executive,Artist,Counselor,Entrepreneur,Musician,Politician,Psychologist, Teacher,Television Reporter

You have a Melancholic Temperament

Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.

Your learning style: Cooperative and Relaxed

You work well with others and enjoy learning practical skills.
You Should Study:Culinary ArtsDentistryEducationEnvironmental Science Fashion MerchandisingInternational Studies MedicineNursingNutrition Science Psychology

People envy your compassion

You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures. You tend to absorb others' happiness and pain.People envy your compassion, and more importantly, the connections it helps you build. And compassionate as you are, you feel for them.

You have low self esteem 56% of the time

While you sometimes feel good about yourself, you tend to struggle a little with self esteem issues.It's not about changing who you are, it's about accepting your faults. You just need to be less critical and demanding of yourself!

You are 18% angry

You're so laid back, no one could ever accuse you of getting angry.While there are a few little things that may annoy you, you generally play it cool.In fact, your calm attitude tends to provoke people with anger problems.They may think you're screwing with them, but that's just the way you are!

You are lilac

You are a very innocent and pure person. Ethics matter to you.Your friends consider you a great listener, and you often play therapist to your friends.You are good at drawing out truths in conversation, however painful they may be.Non judgmental and patient - people feel like they can tell you anything!

I have fifteen and a half claims to make.

1)Any term related to Psychology or Counseling is bolded in the results.

2) Cream is the colour of spray paint that I bought to paint my bear/monkey/voodoo doll for D&T.

3) They agree that I have a melancholic temperament.

4) I should NOT study Science and Dentistry. I am and will be failing physics and I do not like my hand in other people's mouths. With the saliva and the gooey stuff and the machine that sprays water and the toothpaste.

5) "You have a kind heart and an unusual empathy for all living creatures" This sentence is not true. I am the pest control person and I kill all insects that come my way and they are living creatures.

6) "You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult. " Agree. Buying a Mars bar= looking for the mars bar shelf=looking at the mars bar pack for 10 minutes=thinking about sore throats and fats and melting of mars bar in bs=thinking of taste of mars bars=considering price worth=seeing if i have money in wallet=not buying mars bars in the end.

7) They agree that I have low self esteem. The handwriting test and the blogthings test both say that I have low self esteem but i dont think so.

8) I am not a "very innocent and pure person". I am a sarcastic person. As said by handwriting test. And my sarcasm is funny.

9) I did this on Tuesday while they were in school but my headache was better. I went to the doctor already. I am not playing truant.

10) I finished 2 mooncakes while copy and pasting everything.

11) Philo PT WS was right in front of me while I did it but I didn't care.

12) I am overwhelmed by the guiltiness of eating two mooncakes now.

13) I do not "lead a very quiet and enriching life"

14) "Your gemstone: pearl" Disagree. A pearl is not a stone, for God's sake.

15) I don't know who the Dali Lama person is.

1/2) I wasted an hour of internet in BS doing this.

Monday, September 11, 2006

♥ Monday, September 11, 2006

The bracketed ones are my comments. And my handwriting analysis is so weird.

Jessica has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Jessica is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time. (That is not true. That is so not true. The other day i tried to SUBTLY be sarcastic to my cousin and she just told me to stop trying to be sarcastic. SEE.)

Jessica's true self-image is unreasonably low. Jessica also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. (Yes. I hate to agree but I do.)She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Jessica is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Jessica's self-concept is artificially low. Jessica will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jessica to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. (omg so true. I don't even know what I'm eating for lunch tomorrow)

In reference to Jessica's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. (NO WAY) She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. (UGH. no) She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jessica slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. (NO. I TAKE IT SLOW ALL THE WAY. COMEON) Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jessica can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip. (EEE)

Jessica has an over-awareness of self. She often feels self-conscious. This means that she often knows what she wants and what she is lacking. When encountering a new group of people, Jessica may stay on the sidelines until she has the people categorized, or she may behave in a "positive attention getting" manner to assure people think good thoughts about her from the start. In the sales profession, this self-consciousness is called "call reluctance". They take the word "no" as a personal criticism. Therefore, there is an internal struggle when performing this type of work. Although this person may be a great salesperson, she still feels insecurity. She will perform better if someone else is with her because the fear of ridicule from her peers is far greater than the fear of ridicule from her clients. Many times this type of person becomes a sales trainer, because when she is training, she doesn't have to put herself in a position of being told "no" as often as the salesmen do.

Jessica is facing what normal people usually don't. She may appear happy-go-lucky or perhaps someone who can never get depressed or unhappy. But most of the time she doesn't show what she is to other people. She prefers to keep some things to herself because she thinks that it will interrupt people. (!!) She wants people to feel great and not be burdened by her problems. (!!)Often, these problems are not minor at all. But this is also a trait that can cause her "downfall". Being too considerate for others will eventually result in hurting herself. Therefore, others should take the initiative to ask her if there's anything wrong so that she knows that they are interested in finding out what she needs. These kind of people usually need more attention than others because they might have probably been hurt before. Otherwise, there is a possibility that they might cause hurt to themselves.

Jessica is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Jessica will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Jessica an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Jessica is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Jessica is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue. (AHA. Explains my depression in watching Moulin Rouge. And also explains why I get cheated all the time)

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jessica doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Jessica can be defiant. She sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn't like it the way she is doing it, then they can just "go to hell!" This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which she thinks are infringing upon her freedom of action. (Agree on infringing of freedom of action!)

LOL. EEEE.

Monday, September 04, 2006

♥ Monday, September 04, 2006

Mom's in town. I always feel happy when Mom's in town. Except for the nagging and the wake up at ten tomorrow scream.

♥ Monday, September 04, 2006

Mom's in town. I always feel happy when Mom's in town.

Except for the nagging and the wake up at ten tomorrow scream.

Sunday, September 03, 2006

♥ Sunday, September 03, 2006

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't, or saying nothing and wishing you had?I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

If you do, they might break your heart, but if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell your heart what to do, it does it on its own, when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much, for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? We tell lies when we are afraid; afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger. Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump. Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had done.

What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye? What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there? What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don't care anymore)

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them? People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend.If you died tomorrow (God Forbid) you would be in my heart.

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year , don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that. Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will. Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, just remember this and take comfort in knowing somebody out there cares about you and always will.

At least I do.