oh, cause you won't listen

Sunday, April 27, 2008

♥ Sunday, April 27, 2008

I am exhausted. And not feeling very well.

Slept over at Nit's with Rory and Jord, ate late dinner and supper from CPK at EX. Laughed a lot, had a lot of fun with heels. Slept at 3.30 and woke up at 8 something, almost stayed a full 24 hours, so close but so far. Typical Girls Night Out I have not had in Singapore besides with tngy.

I also now have a stomachache from probably gastric or something since I ate breakfast+lunch at 4 today at band and I think I had milk in Nit's coffee twice.

I don't know how it feels. I think I'm running away.

Like how I'd rather not have eyes than having them cry.

Or how I'd rather not have ears than having them hear what I don't want to hear.

Like how I'd rather not have a brain if it's painful.

And the same way, I'd rather be heartless than have one that hurts.

I'm starting to close up, and I'm feeling the walls shutting out the best things but I'm just standing there watching. And the sick thing is, I'd rather watch them close than get hurt by what I stopped to open.

Someone needs to change me back to being me. I need childish thoughts and Nit's arms around my waist lol.

Thursday, April 24, 2008

♥ Thursday, April 24, 2008

Carly Smithson is out!?!?!

I have the results on AmericanIdol.com and I have to say I'm so disappointed. I mean Carly is jsut amazing, you know? She is like Kelly Clarkson. Though she might not have won the thing, she's got tough competition and all, but she sings really great. Really really great. And she shouldn't have been voted off this week - at least it's not her time to go yet. I think America's made some pretty stupid decisions about their Idol recently.

AH. COME ON MAN WAKE UP.

The next most interesting thing that's on my mind right now is the SPirit of Hope youth ball(tsk, look at the caps).

Wait.

CARLYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! ):

Okay. So we have to do a personal project for grade ten, if you don't do it, you don't pass to go to IB, see? And bear and five and I are planning on a charity ballll!

Oh gosh i did not see this post til five minutes go continue tmrw, TMRW IS FRIDAY SO I PROMISE KAY.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

♥ Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Omg I just watched the most scariest and weirdest movie of my entire life.
HAS ANYONE NO IDEA HOW THE WICKER MAN SCARES ME?! DO YOU KNOW THAT HOLLYWOOD SHOULD NOT PRODUCE SUCH WEIRD FREAKY FRIGHTENING SCARY IRRESPONSIBLE MOVIES.
I say irresponsible because I am not going to sleep tonight and I will get 4 in every single subject because I am not going to pay attention tomorrow.
WHAT THE HUEY.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!

I am deeply traumatised.

Know what it feels like to want to cry

But no tears fall from your eyes

David Cook is hot.

Always be my Baby
we were as one babe for a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine
now you want to be free so I'm letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe our love will never die,no!

you'll always be a part of me

i'm a part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

i ain't gonna cry no
and i won't beg you to stay
if you're determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you'll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no

you'll always be a part of me
i'm part of you indefinitely
boy don't you know you can't escape me
ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby
and we'll linger on
time can't erase a feeling this strong
no way you're never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

ahhhhh i dont want to do music miss prisky save me.

I dont know what to talk about. Chee did not text me his user and password so i can't blog on his blog aww he hasnt been online in three months? his email should be dead by now man.

ellie loves me. she really does.

to all reading this but now tagging, shame on you dev jane whoever else who secretly adores me and reads my blog but never tells me.

the blues composition makes me blue ):

night.

Monday, April 21, 2008

♥ Monday, April 21, 2008

Untitled - Rory Waterpell and me, Lyn.

feels like im watching you drive away
in your old mustang
5 metres felt so far away
well ten years have gone way too fast
life's a race that no one likes
go too fast and you'll miss the ride
of a billion chances flashing by
missing every traffic light

but when all your dreams shatter
and youre lost amongst the snow
and your heart feels so heavy
its drowning in your soul
when nothing else matters
and you lose all control
just turn around you'll see
it's me

seven miles from where i used to be
hundred miles from where i wanna be
never say never (never say never)
cause your words faded away boy
said 'i'll never leave you' didnt you
said 'i'm gonna miss you' didnt you
watch your promises -
never say never

UNEDITED BRIDGE:
when i stop your face watches me and smiles at me
you are my air my water my ground (hahahahahahahha!!!)
when thinking of you makes my heart race
your presence is my oxygen (HOW CORNY!)

It's so cool right, random night fun. Sorry haven't been updating, promise one tmrw.

Night <3

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

♥ Wednesday, April 16, 2008

If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

Okay, as promised, and with Kris' tag still right there on my tagboard making me feel guilty, here's a part two.

BREAKFAST

Bacon!
Aha the chioest most cutest member of the breakfast family (sorry jess, its not you HAHAHA!) and she makes me laugh with her funnyness (she christened herself lil miss sexy please!) and she's so cheerful and happy and a girl with an ENORMOUS heart (esp for taokaenoi) she loves God and loves me and she tells me that a lot, for proof see tagboard and her blog and I do love her a lot, I miss her like crazy though we started out weird, something like she's best friends with fran and jess was her neighbour, and jess and fran are good friends with me so we got dragged in somehow. But i am glad we did ;D!! <3 class="Apple-style-span" style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">But how do you expect me to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

Okay just quick one, have to go.
Just one thing!
A rap about maturity
BY RORY WATERPELL AND ME, LYN.

YOU MAKE MY DAY:

You make my day
So please stay
dont go away
Because youre not gay
and youre my babeh!
And don't eat hay

And what the hueyi!!

AND:

THE RAP OF O.

Yellow Mellow Marshmallow says Hello
She feels shallow, and a little bit hollow

she needs a warm pillow
and lemak says she needs to drink milo!

tada! rory and waterpell make my dayyyy. <3
night you guys ;D

Sunday, April 13, 2008

♥ Sunday, April 13, 2008

This one's for my friends.
There's an issue with the world about taking friends for granted. They aren't being appreciated enough and too many friendships fade over time, even friendships that don't deserve to. So here's one for all these great people (in no order):

The Usual Suspects;

Jess
My ultimatumy best friend who loves me like shit. She loves me too much to give up on me no matter how horrible I am and how bad I'm feeling she doesn't quit on me or do anything of the sort. She's my bucket and will forever be my bucket no one can change that she is the most amazing woman on earth but people continuously hurt her but that's fine cause I will foreverrr stick up for her and she will alwayssss be loved no matter how much of my money she borrows (you owe me 29.50 HAHAHA) and I'm here to say, honey, I will always love you bff <3!

El
My AMAZING friend who always makes me laugh with her weirdness nevertheless comedic actions and words. She's like my lil sister though she's older than me and whines about missing me when I'm at the airport and though she NEVER checks my blog and only when I tell her, I love her no matter what happens and she's the keeper of so many of my secrets there's nothing unturned between us and will remain like that forever xoxoxo!

Tngy
She is AWEZINGLY lame but she loves me a lot as well to the extent of downloading skype just to get to call me for free and God knows she's not an internet person but she is nonetheless one of the world's greatest friends who ALWAYS listens to me and has NEVER fought with me for the entire 6 years I've known her (that is a great feat). She always surprises me at the most unlikely times and I think I am a bad influence on her because she has become a better person since my departure. <3!

Mon
This awesome aunty has been with me since I was SIX and she has just stuck by me all this time and words cannot describe how much I love her, though we don't talk as much as we did mon, you are one of the best friends I have ever known and your children are no doubt the luckiest people on earth because you are a GREAT mom no one could ask for a better one ;D I love you forever, always stay an aunty!

Bwother
Dan with his very long name and I have been friends since 2nd grade and it would be HORRIBLE to imagine all those years of school and afternoons without him texting and IMing on the other side of the computer and though now we don't talk as much because his computer is just completely screwed we sms (too much) and I still love him as much as ever he will forever be my brother and that will never ever change I can solemnly swear.

Vin

The most lovely guy on earth (second to my bwother) who is going to live in heathrow and never fails to make me feel so, so happy and healthy and he's like an enormous duck who's going to save me when I'm drowning (HAHAHAHAHAH) but he is amazing thats all I can say ;D Love you!

RG:

Pril
Chiapril and her hilariously awesome jokes and adorability ALWAYS makes me laugh, she's my joy pill and I reckon will never stop being my joy pill. Pril's always there with me to swoon over hot guys (AND CHACE IS NOT YOURS HE'S OURS AHAHAH) and laugh at the most ridiculous stuff, I look at the videos she takes and I smile too much my jaws hurt and I miss her like crazy because she makes me have stomach cramps from laughter which heals all my heartache pain and sickness, in health and in sickness indeed, <3 miss you girlll!

Pris
An amazingly busy woman who still tags at my blog and says she loves me (see fig 3.2 tagboard hahaha!). Pris is always happy and positive though she has the down moments and we share a common pain that still hurts when we talk about it but I always know that she's right there in Singapore thinking about me and then I'll think of her and know that she'll always give me her humongous hugs which I love SO much and she makes everything right again. I love you priscilla chew!

Simmy
My email buddy and mother chick (HAHAHA) who always philosophyses and is extremely good in analysing the minds. She's always so great, so calm and fun at the same time and she's the great amazing rafflesian who's the strongest amongst us four and is always there with her shoulder and her hand to just pick us up when we're so trodden and down. Simmy shall remain pretty and grow up to be the first Singaporean who masters dentistry, cancer treatment, shakespeare, history and save millions of lives by preventing WWIII using her wisdom love forever simmysim!

I have breakfast's, BS's and ph's but that's something to look forward to, I need to study science right now ;D

See ya <3

Saturday, April 12, 2008

♥ Saturday, April 12, 2008

82 words

Speedtest

COOL! Rairai can do 103!

♥ Saturday, April 12, 2008

You've Got A Friend

Carole King/James Taylor/Mcfly

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

If the sky above you
Grows dark and full of clouds
And that old north wind begins to blow
Keep your head together
And call my name out loud
Soon you'll hear me knocking at your door

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend

How sweet are these lyrics?!?!

Anyway hey sorry haven't been updating cause I've been guitarheroing a lot because I was mad that my fingers didn't let me learn this new song I'm crazy about (Dust in The Wind) and i desperately wanted to.

So first things first;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELLIE BELLIE NOR NOR MY LOVELY BABETTE I MISS YOU!!

Sweet fifteenth I hope you spend today happily and just go enjoy yourself honey okay stress is never gone but you're always there for me so I wish you HAPPINESS and JOY in your fifteenth year of existence ;D So the song above is for you!!! I shall sing it for you sometime if you pardon my horrible voice

Love you miss you, as always, xoxo (:

I'm so happy I'm not gonna tell you why. ;D

The london trip is cancelled! I was supposed to go London Stratford and Paris in september with my school and some mates (gaby!) and now it is cancelled the school broke a promise I am going to write in!!!!

My london! I wanna go to Heathrow and see the Busted boys.

HAHAHAH. No but really I'm sad ):

This post is full of smilies.

I'm going off in ten minutes for retreat band practice nearby it's pretty cool, the drums deafen me but it's great.

I am in this music craze again especially now Carole King!! I just realised she sang the Gilmore Girls' theme song AND natural woman AND you've got a friend she's awezing.

Oh awezing! Is a mixture of awesome (dev's favourite word) and amazing (my favourite word) yeah we were that bored with intransik something and trans something words in BI so actually I made it up, dev just stared at me like I was the lamest person on earth, ever.

This post is very random.

I find it funny that I'm starting to have different nicknames all of a sudden.

Ever since I started calling my dear pat Golden Bear (which, btw suits her a lot) I've been christened Jayjay by her.

Which went on to the rest of the girls in the grade.

And then, Jane starts calling me by my surname. >;( (LOL!)

Which I don't like and spread to the class.

And Mr John starts calling me Jacklyn (I have no idea why) okay it was once but I like the name so now my recently discovered twin brother who was separated from me from birth (we have a theory that our dad is yao ming and that we have finally reunited and when he finally becomes a great astronaut and makes a great leap for mankind old yao ming will finally take us back HAHAHAHA) calls me lyn. Which I like, so cool right.

And I was indignant that he gets to call me by a nickname and I can't call him by a nickname so his name is going to be Five.

AHAHAHAHAH I don't think I'm making sense but this is all so funny.

Okay I'm going to go to band, so I'll see you tonight when I come online to meet the love of my life JTMMS.

Goodnight!

Monday, April 07, 2008

♥ Monday, April 07, 2008

Angel - Jack Johnson

I've got an angel
She doesn't wear any wings
She wears a heart that can melt my own
She wears a smile that can make me wanna sing

She gives me presents
With her presence alone
She gives me everything I could wish for
She gives me kisses on the lips just for coming home

She could make angels
I've seen it with my own eyes
You gotta be careful when you've got good love
Cause the angels will just keep on multiplying

But you're so busy changing the world
Just one smile can change all of mine
We share the same soul
Oh oh oh oh oh ohhh
We Share the same soul
Oh oh oh oh oh ohhh

Hey so guess what, new love. Golden bear and I are officially fans of Jack Johnson <3

I hereby declare that the internet is highly distracting. I was doing my english essay real efficiently because the electricity went off and my ISP died on me, and then it came on again and so my distraction to blog.

I think i cut my finger. I say 'think' because it hurts when I type but there's no obvious scar that I can see and it's not bleeding or anything. I was on my acoustic and then it just started hurting, but I usually bleed when I cut myself, huh?

Yeah okay I'm not making sense but owwww pain I swear the string is evil. I can't type anymore it hurts like crazy I'm going off goodnight ;D

Saturday, April 05, 2008

♥ Saturday, April 05, 2008

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay, would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

Cause I cant help falling in love with you

I love the Andrea Bocelli version.

I had a very scary dream last night. I had a really really really really scary dream I swear. Okay I dreamt that I was a grizzly bear. And me the grizzly bear was chased around by a lamb-looking moose (or a moose-looking lamb, I couldn't really tell) in this field/war/grass-filled piece of field which was really overgrown the grass was all tall as me the grizzly bear. And the moose looking guy was chasing me around trying to kill me and bring me to the wicked witch! And then I ran about for like HOURS and then the scene changed and I was at a house being me the human and with a few friends (who I will know in the future, I suppose) we snuck into the room of a superior/matron/dorm mistress or someone more senior in terms of rank who we were convinced was a witch/evil spirit and suddenly the house shook and the mirrors disappeared and the light was flickering and we were super duper terrified and then the door burst open and the owner came in looking horrifying and we ran out of the room.

And then the scene changed AGAIN back to the overgrown field! Me the grizzly bear was trying to protect another animal while being chased around by that stupid mooselamb thing who ran faster than me and he almost got me, until I escaped into a cave which had a lift. And then I ran into the lift and saw the moose running towards me and the door closed and it turned out that inscripted in the lift said Wicked Witch's Lair and I woke up.

I was aching all over and super duper tired.

Is this dream even interpretable?! I mean seriously I have no idea what it means it doesn't even make any sense please.

I am at my dad's store I'm going to go for dinner so see ya later.

Friday, April 04, 2008

♥ Friday, April 04, 2008

Throw it away

Forget yesterday

We'll make the great escape

Here, as promised.

I was so tired/happy when I got off school I slept all the way home and then when I got home I slept some more and I just got up barely five minutes ago. That's just the coolest.

Have I ever mentioned how much I like Fridays? It's just so comforting to know that I don't have to go to school tomorrow. I mean, not that I hate school but it's just, you know, early and I feel like a bird waking up so bloody early in the morning it doesn't even look like the morning. Early bird, you know?

Yeah. Frequent readers should realise by now that I have the ability to crap something out of nothing at all when there is NOTHING at all to crap about I have no idea how I do it, how amazing huh?

I'm trying to save the blog from an overload of pictures. This is why I'm crapping.

I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

I finished the seventh season of Gilmore Girls I just need, let's see, every other season. But it's cool in a way I've watched it on youtube countless times and I know the plot and everything and Rory and Lorelai are the love I swear <3

How can you mend a broken heart?
How can you stop the rain from falling down?
How can you stop the sun from shining?

Okay I'm hungry. I'm gonna find something to eat ;D

Thursday, April 03, 2008

♥ Thursday, April 03, 2008

Seems like just yesterday, you were a part of me.

I used to stand so tall, I used to be so strong.

Everything, it felt so right.

Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong.

Now I can't breathe, no I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on

Here I am once again

I'm torn into pieces

Broken up deep inside

Can't deny it, can't pretend

I haven't packed his stuff yet, I don't know why. It just seems to wrong to clean out, keep away all the memories.

I'm uploading all his pictures into photobucket so if my computer crashes my photobucket (hopefully) won't.

In puncak. Julia Elizabeth Liao I miss you!

Her idea but cool idea.

Abstract picture I took with my camera it has amazing resolution.

My cousin who I named after my bwother HAHAHAHA adorable.

I'm trying to act normal but he just has to be dumb.

Anyway. Just a quick update, it's Thursday so tmrw I promise a long one. I seem to have eyebags in every picture so that I have to solve yes? I am (finally) updating all my pictures/blogs/photobucket/iphoto/imovie I'm even doing up some videos, just for fun. And songs on garageband. It's just this sudden spurt of encouragement for uh, creativity.

I think I am turning into a better person ;D

Super sleepy. Cannot open eyes. Need bed. But I'm really keen on the movie when I'm done I'll paste it here ;D

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

♥ Tuesday, April 01, 2008

I have hilarious pictures from choir can't help but put em up here.