Wednesday, October 25, 2006
♥ Wednesday, October 25, 2006
OH MY GOD I AM FUMING DON'T EVEN TRY TO TALK TO ME.''MOM, JIEJIE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME! I TOLD HER I FELL DOWN AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME!''Yeah, right. Please, ask yourself a few questions before you start all that whining and telling mom that well, I am a mean and bad and undeserving girl because 'i don't care about you'.GROW - UP.I can tolerate when you're lazy. I can tolerate when I have to scream at you to do homework, or bathe, or whatever. I can tolerate when you call me names. I can tolerate when you say that I've taken your chair (because you know what, dad was in mine) and so you go pull my hair and all that stuff about me being mean and all that words. But I can't tolerate when you make yourself sound like you're the most pathetic person on earth."MOM, JIEJIE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME!''You know what, SHUT UP.Don't even TRY to say that stupid line right when I am tired and cranky and you're finding something to yell at because you have NOTHING to yell at. I have been busy all day long doing constructive things like PACKING and MASSAGING MOM and what have you done? 'Oh, jie, watching disney channel and about how penny proud melted an army of PEANUT BUTTER SOLDIERS in THE PROUD FAMILY MOVIE, and also sitting right beside the medicated oil which you used to massage mom and refusing to get that for you when you were going to massage mom and i was playing my bonnie lies over the ocean on the piano.'YOU ARE SO RIGHT. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU, JO.'' I TOLD HER I FELL DOWN AND SHE DIDN'T EVEN CARE ABOUT ME''Excuse me, but when did you fall? And when was the last time I fell? You know what, you just fell on the ground sometime ago with a 'backache and head pain' and I fell on the stairs not more than 2 weeks ago, sprained my ankle almost twice sometime ago, and I have backaches and headaches and muscle aches everyday. And did you ever care about me? You didn't? Well guess what you didn't! What right do you have to say that you are the most pathetic child in the whole wide world?Because you aren't. And neither am I. Look at them, all the starving kids in Africa, all the people who don't even have food to eat or toilets to go to. And look at you complaining of not enough toys, not enough money, too small a house, dirty toilets or not eating what you want to. You've been blessed already with the best gift you could ever had. You have a life. You can breathe. What more do you want? Or what more do you want from me?I've tried to be as tolerant as I can and I try not to get involved in your fights or anything. I don't come up with excuses to tell mom so that she starts scolding you. I don't, okay? And neither should you. But don't bring things too far. I've been fiery enough to start with, and don't you dare try to come up with anything else that's gonna make me lay a finger on your 'beautiful harmless hair'.Because you know what, since you say I don't care when I do, then I'm not going to. NO, JO, I'M NOT GOING TO CARE ANYMORE. YOU CAN DO WHATEVER AND IM NOT GOING TO CARE ABOUT YOU ANYMORE.Blame me for everything, go on. Cause I don't really mind, you've done so much I am near to immune of your hurtful doings.''JIE JIE IS ALWAYS LIKE THAT. SHE NEVER LETS ME HAVE WHAT I WANT. SHE ALWAYS NOT GOOD ONE.''SHUT UP. IF I HEAR THAT IN MY HEAD ONE MORE TIME I'M GOING TO FIND SOME WAY TO KILL MYSELF.screw you.Last night I dreamt I died, someone shot me and I went to heaven. And it was so peaceful, maybe if I have that dream tonight I'd prefer to stay there permanently.I want my freedom back. You, get out of my troubles. I don't need no extra burden so shut your mouth and go away.pissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedpissedSCREW YOU.
