graduation
Friday, November 03, 2006
♥ Friday, November 03, 2006
i've never felt like this before.
what's the word?
loneliness. probably i've felt it but i never realised how much it could bring me. all the introverted thoughts, all the emotional outbursts. i wake up and then i stare into an empty room. and i tell myself that last night was a good night's sleep. because i didn't get interrupted, and i had no dreams. i had a good night's sleep.
but so what, because when i wake up its an empty room. just a soundless room with four walls which keep me enclosed in this silence. they block out every single sound, they block out every single ray, and they block out any hope i am supposed to see.
maybe that's human. when you want silence you get noise, and when you want noise you get silence. when it's too noisy you want silence, and when it's too silent you want noise. there's just this fine line between silence and noise, because we all want either.
perhaps, the fact that today was the last day of school got me emotional. it's been so long since i wrote such a post. recently ive been alright. recently ive been too occupied to think about these stuff. and recently i haven't had the time to look out of my window.
you'll be amazed what a peek out the window gives you. tranquility in the noise; something that soothes you, maybe the wind. peace in the view; something that tells you that the day is over, and that tomorrow is a new day where beginnings start afresh and today's issues don't last till next sunrise. it's an illusion, a dream, and yet it gives so much relief. too much relief that i don't want to snap out of it.
but sooner or later we have to come back to reality. sooner or later we have to stop gazing out the window. sooner or later we have to deal with today's issues tomorrow. and many a times we do so because we have to. because we cant stay in dreamland forever, because life isn't any bit like an illusion. the world is never a perfect place where the good get rewarded and the bad get punished.
they say that there are answers to all questions, it's just that we're not smart enough to figure them out yet. i don't agree. some things cant be explained in words, but some other things can't. give me a word to describe how im feeling, and im telling you, there's nothing you can say no matter how smart you are.
because some things, like feelings, can't be explained in words.
