Friday, December 08, 2006
♥ Friday, December 08, 2006
It's weird how adults make me feel so stupid.
My father just confronted me - actually he put it in a very accusing tone - and he asked me why I didn't stay over another night at my grandmother's place. His mother, not my mom's. He said that my grandfather just(three years ago) passed away and my grandmother is used to having him lead her the way. Before I start telling you everything, I'm just going to tell you whatever he said just now.
him: So why didn't you spend another night at ama's house?
me: i didn't have clothes and everything else. i only brought my pooh doll. jojo had science exam so i came back to teach him.
him: we can bring over what. and mummy can teach jojo science.me: ... (like WHEN. the other night you picked me up at ten thirty when you said you were going to come at five. and excuse me, why do you push everything to mom? she is the one who's been working like hell for your finances, your business. you are just going on about your dream of everyone in indonesia eligible to buy an ipod.)
him: you can spend time with mommy and ama(my mom's mom) anytime what. (no, dad. no. ever since you asked mom and jo to come back i've never been to reach her whenever i needed her) ama's not used to not having gonggong to lead the way for her because he always lead the way for her last time right. but now he's no more so ama's is just lost, you know, suddenly. (dad, my cousin and my aunt are there every day. and gong gong went three years ago. before that he was in bed for four years)me: uhuh. okay. (doesn't mean that you can control your staff at work you can control the family as my father you can control your family as the eldest son you can control who i love too. i love ama, i do. i just hope that you stop accusing me of doing some things)him: you understand what i mean? how many times do you see ama (his mom) in a year?me: ...twice. (i know, you're going to compare - )him: and how many times do you see ama(my mom's mom) in a year?me: ... (not answering)him: once a month right.me:... (what kind of calculation is THAT?!?! ONCE A MONTH? dad, please stop being biased. it doesnt mean i spend more time with ama(mom's mom) i love her more it doesnt work that way. stop this, so i can one day tell ama that whatever she's biased against you isn't true)after that he went on about comparing me with my cousins, how they help their dad with the business, how they are pros at macs. they are GUYS, dad. they love the computers.
but i dont, dad. i dont.
