Sunday, December 31, 2006
♥ Sunday, December 31, 2006
OKAY. SIMMY PRISCILLA AND FRANSIS.
see that's what happens when i post about l-o-v-e. there is always a clash in opinions and a tag from simmy. -.-
anyway. i've written my angel letter (: i just need to put my mortal's name next to 'dearest' in my greeting. HAHA. i'm quite excited about this mortal thing. but not school, though. i'm not ready to go back to endless homework afternoons and no dinners. although i COULD lose some unnecessary fats. so from now on i shall resume on my diet. two grapes a day xD
HAHAHA. nah. well i have to put some diet and exercise schedule on. and also this study program to get that higher gpa. since i have already decided that i shall not think about some other things. like how much is a bar or toblerone or when he is going to reply.
talking about him. it's so hard. i keep telling myself to forget about it. that he probly has a good reason to not reply. and im not talking, either. i promised that i was only answerable to myself and no other man. it was hard at first, to come and do it altogether, and control myself. but in the end i guess i had to make it work. i'll wait, but i won't think about it. that's probly the only way out for now.
nine days. if i survive these nine days then i'm sure i have nothing to be afraid of. not even when he comes back to say sorry. good. nine days, jessica. nine days.
anyway. things haven't been going good for me. my sims won't work, for one. and then ive been trying to find all my cds which i bought and someplace which gives me a super big discount on vah's cd. which i havent found til now. both the cds and the discount, i mean. and i realised that i left six sets of cds or so in bs. -.- it's pissing, you know. my lovely cds are not home!
my phone has been so so so quiet! i can't imagine if - okay nevermind. i won't think about it.
i'm still forcing it, actually. it hasn't been easy, you know. didn't know i'd become like this. i'd call myself stupid. but i'm really lucky mom and everyone's here. at least i have some things to take my mind off. but when they get back i'll have to live with it all over again. probly i'll cry, probly i wont. but whatever it is and how it goes i hope i'll find a way to work around it, the loneliness and the solitude. probly i'll appreciate it, probly i won't.
but in the end, the moral of the story is to treasure the moment, isn't it? and not to regret not doing some things earlier on. it's better to take it now than to make amends later. it's always that way, it's always that moral.
musiconnects.
i love that n5300 advert. partly because of the phone! HEH. but it's really cute and original and creative! i love the advert. they should do it with babies and i'd save all of my allowance to buy one. i'm serious, really.
anyway. i just recovered from that bout of sicknesseseseses, which, i havent told him yet, by the way, and intend to tell him that i died of bird flu or something equally lame. but i'll see. it depends on the situation. i'm forcing him to get out of my mind.
god, how long have i crapped? i'd better go.
bye doods.
