Friday, January 12, 2007
♥ Friday, January 12, 2007
i feel like i'm letting some people down.
the usual lovely suspects; jessica tan, monica, kevin, fransisca, sara, and even tien li. my new lovely class two oh four. everyone seems so happy, so excited, so...great. perhaps if things hadn't gone wrong i'd be like them. but as far as im going, i don't want to upset jess and the rest. i don't want to wallow in my own self pity and tell myself endless whatifs. because what's happened happened and i cant turn back the clock. i don't want to regret the decisions ive made later on.
i feel so weak, every time. but it's those few people who eventually come around and tell me things are okay, those people who cheer me up, as much as they can, at least. and i don't want to let them down.
i don't want to waste endless hours on the phone talking to jess, til way morning almost dawn since the night before. i don't want to waste all the time i spent talking to monica and fransis online, from afternoon til midnight, not exaggerating. i don't want to just throw away the expensive calls to australia talking to kevin and sara. i don't want to waste what tien li told me.
i don't want to waste their efforts, and i don't want to waste their time.
so i've decided, that im going to live whatever i can. but again, i can't guarantee that i'll be happy all the time. :D stupid me.
and i know i've not been updating you on my new class while everyone else is. but two oh four is lovely okay! we range from shorts to talls (: i think it's going to be a great year. i am their grandma hen who will probly nag at them twenty four hours a day. ahahaha. but otherwise. i hope everything turns out good.
i shall see if i can remember all their names.
berenice janine(06t3sl!) khaigzin dorcas(06'104!) cherylkoh(rge!) michelle chelsea(06'104!) cherylho sylvia(06t3sl-deposit-money-partner!) natalie hannah(labpartner!) kristie jessicachan(samename!) huiyi huanying(06'104!) kathy jovina yingting(hello-old-friend!) joanna(06'104!) xueshan jiaying amanda(mother hen!) sarah(mother hen!) gillian(motherhen!) eleanor(newzealand!) cherylchan yiling yuhui eenette miranda yujia(06'104!) celeste eunice huizi(06'104!) magdaline(rge and motherhen!) xinle
yay i remember everyone! and i keep on mixing saying jessicachan with jessicatan. ahaha. like i'll call her jessicatan sometimes. cos they do the same face whenever they don't get what i say! oh jessica chan you remind me of jessica tan! ahaha okay i shall cool down a bit from my lameness. and my old old old old friend yingting is back in the same class with me. (: and she's in my group. and we have the same school shoes :D and cherylkoh and mag are in the same class with me. so we have three lovely huge and adorable guitars at the back of our classroom! (:
and there are quite a lot of people who were sls last year. like dorcas and janine and sylvia and jessicachan and no more.
ah sheesh jessica chan i keep repeating your name. ah well we have the same name anyway. :D
okayokay, no lameness, got it. talking about lameness, oh my god. priscilla has gotten lamer and lamer and lamer and she has learnt how to whine! oh man! whine! and she'll just suddenly start laughing like there aint no floor and then define the lame theory. and so pril and pris get super lame every now and then and i have to count on simmy to keep my saneness. (: yay simmy! we shall live together and coexist! ahaha i sound like a parasite.
anyway let's see what else is there. sylvia! she's so cute! ahahaha i don't know why. not in that baby sense. like the deposit the last time. the eight dollars to pass to her who i didnt know. and i ran into her sometimes. like the toilet. :D and um. eunice who switched mortals with me because my original mortal's name was eunice too! and and and and two netballers(: i love netball, netballers! ahahaha.
okay ive not let you guys down. you guys better be happy.
