Saturday, February 10, 2007
♥ Saturday, February 10, 2007
I'm crying. But it will be the last time I cry for you.
Because I've made a decision to leave.
Away from you, away from the strains of you, away from every single thing you remind me of. I don't know if I can do this, I don't know if I have the courage to, but I'll try anyway. I will forget you in time to come, and to me you'll just be a passing cloud that once disrupted my life, and then you're gone. A blow and you're gone to somewhere else you'd rather be.
I can't stop crying. I don't know why. I'm not forced to give you up - it's my own decision to. I want to get away from you, because it's the only way I'll ever learn to be me. I'm a step closer to forgetting you - at the most I'll turn off my phone, delete your name, empty the saved messages, and trade in my phone to a better phone, just to forget you. Because between you and her; I choose her.
I can't write anymore, I'm feeling terrible inside, like a thousand knives just stabbed me, like that, I'm bleeding. But this is for my good.
I will stop crying. I will. Never again will I cry for you, a passing cloud that once disrupted my life, and then you're gone. Because that's what you are and what you're going to be.
