Sunday, February 25, 2007
♥ Sunday, February 25, 2007
I'm suddenly having a very heavy mood swing.
I don't know why. Tienli's talking to me, but I don't feel like replying her. I'm sorry Tienli, it's not your fault.
It's just, the feeling. The same one that kills inside to feel, the same one that stays when I'm having the time of my life, and it won't go away, no matter what I do, however long I wait. It stays, and it hurts so bad.
I'm not in the mood to do anything right now. It seems like the things I've been trying to forget are coming back all to me, like how the water goes back to the sea, and it will never stop going. It feels as though I can't live through a night like this, like I'd die without my blog, like I'd die without some people I couldn't live without.
I'm lapsing into depression, and I don't know why. A minute ago I was okay, I was laughing, I was thinking of funny stuff. A minute later I'm like this, I feel like dying, like the blood in me isn't running anymore, like my lungs are going to fail me the moment I try to breathe, because there's no oxygen left in the air for me to breathe.
And it hurts so much inside to know that, I cannot live without you.
