Saturday, February 24, 2007
♥ Saturday, February 24, 2007
Quite a lot of stuff have been happening these days.
First there's my gram getting admitted into the hospital. And then my stupid flight got delayed, missing school. Chocolate's fifth string broke. Things I've been trying to forget about, coming back to me again. There's so much more to do, homework, bs stuff, and all the other extra stuff for school that just sucks so bad. Plus tests are coming up soon.
These days I feel like dying, almost. I work so hard, from morning til night, and the same cycle repeats all over and over again, but I don't understand what I'm working for. Grades, yes, but after grades there isn't anything else. Perhaps, to less my mother's worries. But in the end there isn't really anything else I get. I have become immune to people telling me, oh you're good in studies, from my results. It doesn't really matter if people praise me anymore, it doesn't really matter if I become oen of the best anymore, school just seems like an everyday thing, something I have to do, not what I want to do.
And it seems like my body's taking the toll. I'm drained, physically and emotionally, my back kills, my hands hurt, my brain doesn't work anymore, my mind isn't very conscious. It's like I'm a zombie walking around saying hi and telling people that I'm okay.
I don't even know what's the point of blogging anymore.
my memory space is exhausted, I can't think, I can't breathe inside, Everything's compressed, there's no more space for anything else, and it just sucks, like that, like life was only meant for work.
I don't even want to think about it anymore.
Life just sucks.
