cars
Monday, March 19, 2007
♥ Monday, March 19, 2007
Why is it that I have never noticed that I loved driving?
Sure, I knew that I loved sitting in a car, looking outside. But never driving. This time I went back and headed over to the track, rented a small car, and off I went. Into the sunset, even, if you actually hit on the brakes and stop to think about it. You know, there was the sun, and the sky was orange, and I was in a small car.
It's not that I haven't been there. I was there last year, but probably cause it wasn't the right mood, the right people, the right atmosphere. When you're sick of everything, you know, and you head back to step on the brakes, look at your life, with the right people at the right time there beside you - it just naturally comes to you, you feel like driving away. Into the sunset.
That's a phrase that makes it all good, dreamy - you see, it only takes three words to make life easier, simpler. Like a fairy tale.
But the problem is, how many of us actually can take the time off, sit in a car (especially when we're underaged) with the right people (almost, at least) and think about our lives as we drive off? Into the sunset.
Or simply, when we step on the brakes of our fast paced lives, our busy schedules, our haphazard meals. When we can actually take a seat, rest a while, and reflect - I don't really like to use the word 'reflect', but I use it for a purpose - on ourselves and the people around us. How we've grown and learnt through the everyday stuff, how insignificant they may seem. That kind of special, special, how do you say it? Special feeling. Feeling? No. I don't know.
You sit there, and you reminisce. You relive the past moments, you think about the times where you laugh, and you smile at yourself. You look at the seat beside you, and you wish some people were there. You want to smile for them, and say, I miss you so much.
Open the window. Let the fresh air overwhelm you, once in a while. Turn away from the road. Let the sunset awe you with its magnificence once in a while. Get out and play in the rain. Let the rain inspire you as you see drops of them dropping softly onto the leaves, once in a while. Sit in the grass. Let the rainbows show you your true colours, let yourself see your true colours. Take a drive in a car. Set yourself free.
Look what's beside the road. Don't just look at the road.
Brake for the scenery. Don't keep driving on.
Smile for life and all of its beauty.
I'm feeling so abstract, I want to rent another car and drive around with a camera, and capture all of nature, all of love, all of life. I want to see what else lives besides school, I want to see what's outside, what has a life besides the empty abyss I call home. I want to run around in this place called Earth, where fairytales lived, where bunnies grew in abundance. I want to live in that field where I could sit on that piece of grass and look at the sky and say, so this is the world.
I want that old me back. That old me who never knew how to write like this. That old me who never knew how to sort the laundry and separate the blacks and the whites. That old me who never understood how music was heaven. I want that old me, the old one who wasn't independent, the old one who saw more than work, the one who would stop the car, get out, and jump in the rain all around, and think that life wasn't sucky at all.
But then again, I still do. I still stop the car. I smile, I get off, and then my inner child just takes over, and I let her.
I soak myself, because I love life, and I love me.
