Saturday, April 28, 2007
♥ Saturday, April 28, 2007
Shit. The past week or so I've been saving drafts. Loads of it. And I never got to finish them cause every day I get interested in a different thing, either I'm too busy with crying while watching Tarzan or Cheetah Girls or Mulan 2, or I bury myself in math which I don't understand, or I start talking to my mom and never stop. The cycle goes on and on and on.
But there was this line Chanel (suay name, remember lit group on the crime scene thing?) said that got me bawling, and all that. I am a complete sucker for anything that relates to my mom, or love, or friendship, I just sit on the floor and start crying, towel in tow. I just can't control myself. Call it the hormones, or the mood swings, but I just totally flip out and start tearing. My eyes grow red and all.
It's really embarrassing if my mom called in the middle of the movie, or something, cause I'll be crying really bad and she'd think I was having another of my breakdowns again.
But I've learnt so much more: That forever isn't real. Forever, is taking all there is in the moment, to make the best of it, to make you love life. Forever may not exist, forever may be until this moment, but we take the plunge all the same. We still love the people around us like we did before, if not all the more. We take the plunge. Admit it, y'all. We do.
And admit that forever doesn't exist. Trust me, it doesn't.
Oh man. I want to start singing hallelujah and stuff like that. I spent the whole afternoon on the phone and msn without doing any work, and I spent every night watching DCOM, which gets me sappy and all, and oh man I'm not making good use of my time!
I'm going back to my old form! I have to come back to work.
Oh. Well. I'm still giddy and all when I think about our honours, MAN do I love rgge. My midyears are coming so I won't be blogging very often these days. My parents'll probably be bringing us to San Franc, or something, and then they can go re-honeymooning while my brother and I stay at Starbucks and drink, or something. I can't wait, though, cause I miss the place already.
I'm trying to get them to rent a van which HAS A TOILET so we don't need to get hotels, that's so cool. AHAHA. I'm going a bit haywire already. Shit. I'm not even talking like how I do.
More stuff. My wordpress blog is dying. Rah. I think I should just shut it down for the time being until I'm ready to write. :D
Okay. Gotta run and do some real work (hopefully, please, conscience, work against my heart!) until it's time to talk to my mommy!
