Sunday, July 29, 2007
♥ Sunday, July 29, 2007
Sigh, the perils of Sunday nights.
So dangerously tempting, yet seemingly so safe.
I'm not even blogging with a purpose in mind right now; it's more of a I love to blog kind of motivation.
And my computer is lagging horribly.
My mood swings are back. Which is not very good, really.
I suddenly feel like I've lost a lot of things, too many things, too important things, and I can't seem to gain them back. I don't know if it's my fault, but I'm still trying to look for it. Does anyone else feel it?
No, I don't think so.
A lot of things have been going on recently, and I guess I'm still trying to find a place where I can fit in, and snuggle like a little puppy in the comfort of it all. You know, a sanctuary (someone is familiar with this, huh?) where at least things could be simpler? That kind of thing. I don't know if I'm right, but I think I've found it.
The place is in friends. The people that I've chosen to speak to today, or laughed with, or anything at all. My lovely bucket and tall table and tap and sara and mon and eleanor and fran and kris. And more.
I think I should learn to treasure these people instead of how I need them all the time. I need to learn how to live by myself for myself, huh?
I know I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I hope it really pays off at the end of it all - whether I learn something, gain something, or lose something, or stay the same, I hope at least I myself have helped me through the largest part of it, because to live is to stand on one's own feet.
Why does it take the darkest of all moments to start thinking?
Funny, right?
