Sunday, April 27, 2008
♥ Sunday, April 27, 2008
I am exhausted. And not feeling very well.
Slept over at Nit's with Rory and Jord, ate late dinner and supper from CPK at EX. Laughed a lot, had a lot of fun with heels. Slept at 3.30 and woke up at 8 something, almost stayed a full 24 hours, so close but so far. Typical Girls Night Out I have not had in Singapore besides with tngy.
I also now have a stomachache from probably gastric or something since I ate breakfast+lunch at 4 today at band and I think I had milk in Nit's coffee twice.
I don't know how it feels. I think I'm running away.
Like how I'd rather not have eyes than having them cry.
Or how I'd rather not have ears than having them hear what I don't want to hear.
Like how I'd rather not have a brain if it's painful.
And the same way, I'd rather be heartless than have one that hurts.
I'm starting to close up, and I'm feeling the walls shutting out the best things but I'm just standing there watching. And the sick thing is, I'd rather watch them close than get hurt by what I stopped to open.
Someone needs to change me back to being me. I need childish thoughts and Nit's arms around my waist lol.
