Friday, July 18, 2008
♥ Friday, July 18, 2008
I'm chillaxing.
Someone told me chillaxing so I guess I'm using it in the weirdest way.
Do you know how much it hurts to stare at an empty room knowing you've crossed every inch of the way.
Or toss everything you touch into the bin knowing to regret the moment they leave my hand.
When I go away from you I need an oxygen tank because I can't breathe.
You know that once you were the only thing I was thankful for because nothing made me happy like you ever did.
Do you know I don't want anyone near me because you were before.
And when you weren't and someone tried I pushed them away.
When my heart caved in I just build it back up because no one else can be as close to it like you were.
Do you know because of you something hurts when I love.
Because I know it's just a matter of time before it tore me apart the last time I did.
A pain in the chest or a nudge in the gut.
Trying to reach the moon but I can't fly.
A bit of sand blows my way but I'm still lost.
Waiting for a storm to brew to make me numb so I can't feel.
I'd rather lie in the wet grass than dry on the ground if it brings me to you
Rather sleep with debris than stay on driftwood if it gets me to see you.
Hide from fireworks forever than watch them burning my heart away.
Do you know I love you more than you love yourself.
Do you know you're my miracle.
No I guess you never will.
