Saturday, October 11, 2008
♥ Saturday, October 11, 2008
I don't want you to read this place.
I feel like a hypocrite.
How do I tell my good mates not to love the person they do?
How do I tell them that I hurt seeing them hurt because of Prince Charming?
Some Prince Charming.
How do I tell them to forget someone?
How do I tell people to get over love, because it's so cruel?
How do I tell my girls to love themselves more than they love them guys?
How do I tell em guys to love themselves more than girls at the same time?
How do I tell them to not spoil us girls?
And that we're stronger than we really are?
How do I tell em guys that I'm going to stop loving them?
Just because it hurts me so much I couldn't even cry.
How do I tell my mates I hurt, when I put on the biggest smile on my face during the day?
How do I tell them when it's the dark I sit down with what makes me cry the most and find that it's the most comforting thing on earth to do?
How do I tell other people what to do?
When I don't even know why I am trying to find a way out of my mess.
Why do I tell people to write when it doesn't help? Or ask them to talk to someone, when it doesn't even work for me. Why do I tell people to do things that I can't do? It's not right that my front should be guarded and my back bare for everyone to stick spears into. I don't know why I'm doing this I don't know why I'm writing because it doesn't help any of the hurt, doesn't take away what makes me feel suffocated. Why? Why am I breathing?
Because I can save people? But I can't even do that because you can't save others when you can't even keep yourself above the water.
How do I lie?
How do I pretend?
How do I stare into their eyes and tell them that they shouldn't feel like shit because they aren't?
How do I turn left and look at her hurtin and turn right and see him hurtin and look straight and smile at the camera and everyone else because I save people's asses?
How did I become a liar?
